Food Total: 2162 cals
So.Tired. Didn't get home until 10:30 last night. I want to quit this but I can't do it to her. She would be devastated. When her business slows down over the winter I will talk to her about an exit strategy. I thought I could hang in there until she transitioned into semi-retirement, but four or five years seems so far away right now.
I really really
wanted to run this morning, but I needed to sleep. Oh well. It isn't the end of the world. Tomorrow morning (after a FULL 8 hours of sleep) I will continue training for my training. LOL.
When I first got to Dallas yesterday, my client wasn't there and there were no signs of life in her offices. So, I decided to go to my old church until she called me. EVERYBODY was making a big deal about how much weight I had lost. That felt kinda special. But, it was way more special being able to love on all of my old church family, again. It has been far too long since I went there. It feels wonderful to hug two and three people at a time in excitement! I really miss that part about not having a church home--the love and support! Need to fix that ASAP.
Update: We received my son's SAT scores in the mail last week. We had decided to give public school out here a chance before last week. When we saw his scores, we decided he was better off going back to private. He tested in the 80th percentile and is at the educational equivalent of someone in the 5th grade (he just finished 2nd). We worry that if we put him in public school he will be bored to death and cause trouble--which is what I am convinced happened in the first 2.2 years of schooling.
We found another school nearby that offers a classical education and small class sizes. The other school was too big for him and something was just *not* right about it. We toured this morning and we are going to enroll him there. Their kids test on average 2 - 3 years above grade level, as well, so it sounds like a good fit for mine. We'll see...interview is tomorrow. This classical education thing seems very intriguing. I wonder why US schools don't do it anymore?
Food Total: 1576 cals
Didn't God rest on the 7th day?
Sounds like one hell of an idea to me!
So, why am I headed for Dallas at 5AM to WORK??? On a Sunday???
Food Total: 1758 cals
Exercise Minutes: 78 mins
18 minutes, one additional lap around the block (1.26 mi.). Dang-those hills! But, I WILL conquer that mountain before training starts. Stay tuned.
Update: 4.4 MPH on the treadmill felt EASY after attempting to run up those <
> hills!E
xceeded my goal of 279.99 by today. Made it down to 279.63. I am within 20 lbs of my all-time lowest adult weight. WooHoo.
Still, I wonder why that number became so important to me?
Food Total: 1646 cals
Exercise Minutes: 10 mins
5:38 AM. Left the house at 5:15 AM.
I have a 4H problem: Heat, Hills, Humidity, Hydration
But only 10 minutes??? C'mon, Cindy. What an embarrasment to the outdoor running community.
I feel like a failure.
Looks like I'll be getting up EVERYDAY at 5AM to acclimate myself to outdoor running.
Update: I'm still feeling kind of down on myself. I put on my size 16 slacks this morning and I was going to wear them to work to make myself feel better. I decided I wanted to wear the baggy 20's with the baggy 22/24 top. They feel like pajamas. I want to be back in bed.
This morning was an educational experience. I will do things a bit differently tomorrow morning. For starters, I am going to run DOWN the steep hill and UP the gradual hill, instead of the other way around (Duh). I am going to put a bottle of water on the sidewalk in front of my house so I don't get dehydrated. And I am going to hope the heat and humidity have peaked and that it won't be so bad as I get farther into this. Perhaps I should eat frist, too.
Tomorrow's outside goal: 15 Minutes. Then my regularly scheduled run at the gym a little later with my family.
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Today was a bit of a test in the food department. The company made lunch for us today and I asked if someone could cook my fish if I brought some. They agreed so I brought a salad (no dressing) and a salmon steak that I added pepper and olive oil to. I added the cooked fish to my salad and it was quite yummy. I was VERY full.
So, back to the test. I love ice cream and they had an assortment of ice cream treats to select from after lunch. I looked at every one of them, read the labels, decided I was full and didn't want it (even though I have TONS of calories left for today) and walked away.
Someone just came back around a few minutes ago peddling them again, and I declined again. He said "c'mon, they are only 140 calories and 4 g of fat, you can afford to have one after eating that healthy lunch! You need to lighten up every once and a while and step out of your diet.
Poor guy, I kind of went off on him how I am not on a diet and I'm not hungry, that he has no idea how many calories I have eaten today, and that it was guys like him who try to convince people like me that just this once won't hurt when just this once adds up to all day long. He is always giving me a hard time about the food I eat. And he is a thin, healthy, running, weight training type, too.
When I got home, my hubby gave me a hug and said oh my gosh, you feel a lot smaller today! I sooo needed to hear that today.
Food Total: 1689 cals
Exercise Minutes: 30 mins
Wow. Busy day. I love work days that are sooo busy that you are surprised to look at the clock and it says 4:59 PM. Sweet.
I weighed in this evening at the gym. I am still up over last week, but I do tend to weigh more in the evenings. The scale went down since Tuesday so there is hope of misplacing that 3.38 lbs this week. I suppose, truth be told, there is always hope.
I felt confident going into the gym this evening that I would get my 50 minutes in at 4.3 MPH. I was doing well then prince charming decided that he was done after barely 30 minutes. Oh well. What do you do?
Tomorrow morning I am going to get up and run outside. I plan on getting up at 5:00 and being back in the house by 6:00. I'm not going to stray too far away from home for the first few times because I haven't run on the road in almost 10 years. I'll probably just run around a block or two for as long as I can, or until it is 6:00 (whichever comes first).
Outside we go to enjoy the pleasant evening and to just talk.
Food Total: 1494 cals
I weighed myself last night and the scale showed +1 lb. I measured myself this morning and no discernable change. I usually weigh in the mornings, so perhaps there is still hope. I would be lying if I said I wasn't a little discouraged, but logic is over-running the emotion (as usual) and I am still going to stick to my 1700 calorie net until Saturday weigh in.
Running at 4.2 MPH last night was fine. I was bloated and gassy and it was uncomfortable to run so I stopped at 30 minutes. Oh well. I have absolutely no muscle or joint pain/swelling/discomfort this morning, so that is a good sign. I need to start running on the road some to acclimate myself as I have only run on the treadmill since 10 years ago. The morning is the only sane time to do this so I am going to shoot for Friday morning.
I want to stick my ear buds in my ears, crank up the iPod and pretend I am alone in the office today. I only have one client to call today and I will be working on a report for them the whole day. I wonder if anyone will miss me if I just crank up the tunes and ignore every other warm body within a 10 mile radius???Update: I just uploaded a more accurate "before" picture of myself. OMG.
Lunch sucked today.
More: My manager just sent an e-mail to the office informing all of us that his 9 mo. old daughter has been diagnosed with severe MPS I (Hurler's Syndrome) with a link to the MPS Society so that we can all understand. How devastating! I can't even begin to imagine what sorts of emotions they are all having right now.
Food Total: 2032 cals
Exercise Minutes: 40 mins
Nervous. Excited. Nervous. Excited.
I signed up for the Austin Marathon training last night and parted with my $100 for a 26 week training program. Nervous. Excited.
Will I really be able to run a 26 mile marathon in six months? OMG.
It starts August 19th.
Since I actually parted with my beloved money for this, I know I will not quit or give up. I have no choice but to do it. OMG. 26 MILES!
Update: I'm not tempted anymore to put stuff in mouth that isn't good for me. I think about what the food will do to my body before I eat it. This is presenting some interesting (slightly negative) social side effects.
The company ordered pizza for lunch last Friday. The thought of eating pizza with all that grease pooled up on it nauseated me. I went and picked up some sushi and had it while the rest of my co-workers were eating pizza. A couple of them said something about me having lots of will-power to choose sushi over pizza. Not so. Sushi has stuff in it that my body needs to function well (rice, salmon, avacado, cucmber, etc.). Pizza will clog up my arteries and make my stomach hurt. No contest in my mind.
I walked by the candy and chip isles at the grocery store yesterday and thought about how disgusting all of that crap would feel in my system.
I made fruit bowls for my son and I while at my father's house a while back and he told me that I am just getting "so weird." I can only imagine what it would be like if I tried to spend any time with my mother and she cooked for us. I'm almost afraid to go see her, now, because of it. What an odd thing to think about...
Food Total: 1677 cals
I am determined to get below 280 by Saturday. I have lost as much as 6 lbs in one week in the past six months. I can lose 3.38. Pushing myself for one week won't be bad for me. It will keep me from getting in a rut.
Yesterday was a low calorie day. I can do the same today. If I keep my net calories at 1700 each day this week I should make it. That sounds pretty easy. I'll call it a plan! Maybe I'll increase the activity some this week, too, just for some cushion. I can do this. 279.99 here I come!
I seriously had no idea how goal oriented I was prior to CK. This is pretty cool. All I gotta do is set goals for myself and I get hell-bent on reaching them. Nice. ______________________________________________________________
Okay, scratch the running goals from a few days ago. I think I am going to train for the Austin Marathon, or the half marathon at the least. If I understand this correctly (which I probably don't), I think I need to run a 12:15 mile to do the full marathon. That is roughly 4.9 MPH if my math is right. I am at an easy 4.1 right now. I am going to up my speed and see if I can get it somewhat comfortably to the 4.9 MPH before the training begins on the 19th of August. I should be pretty close to my goal weight by 2/18/07 (the date of the Marathon). The idea of running a marathon seems like a pie in the sky fantasy. But, why not try? I am strong. I am healthy. I am lighter every day. I am no longer morbidly obese. (Just plain-ol' obese. ) And I get closer to slipping into the over-weight category week by week.
I just sent an e-mail to my hubby. I wonder what his reaction will be.
Food Total: 1733 cals
Yay! The boy is home--finally. His plane arrived at 11:03 last night. Poor thing. He was supposed to be in SIX hours earlier. He was very very happy to be home. We stayed up until midnight and we all crashed as soon as our heads hit the pillow.
He came home a good 7 - 10 lbs heavier IN THREE WEEKS. I want to strangle my mother. Why does she think it is okay to do this to him? We go through this EVERY YEAR. Last year I decided that I wasn't going to put him on a diet, that I would just make sure his weight stays constant. We did good. He's been about the same weight for an entire year and his waist has remained exactly the same size over that year. This year, I think he needs to drop a few of those pounds.
I think the nutritionist said that a boy his age/size needs about 1,800 calories a day. I'll do some research on the net and see if I come up with the same figure. I'm going to knock him back about 300 for about six weeks. I'm hoping he'll drop about 3 - 5 lbs in that time. I'll let him grow into the remaining weight he added at Mom's. Grrrrr.
I think I'm going to give her an ultimatum. Either she takes care of him appropriately or he doesn't come to visit for three weeks anymore. An eight year old boy shouldn't have to deal with these problems! Scott and I are going to try to turn the "diet" into a learning experience for him. I've been teaching him about food and he is starting to read labels and understands a little about the calorie thing, but he is only 8. I can't expect him to tell my mom "No, I don't want to eat at McDonalds because it isn't healthy." LOL. Wouldn't that be something!
This just makes me so mad. Neither one of my parents "get" it. Imagine that! They produced a 250 lb 9th grader (me). Is it any wonder my kid would end up the same under the same ignorance and stupidity? No.
But, I guess I did assume they would have some respect for my parental wishes. Yeah, I guess I always do expect too much out of people--especially those that are closest to me.
Update: I just haven't been really hungry today. None of us really ate enough today. Hubby wanted Baskin Robbins. Kid had enough calories for it. I caved. I got a double scoop because I was REALLY low in calories and I couldn't finish it. I probably could have stopped after 1 scoop. Why do I do this? It didn't taste very good after the first four bites. Maybe I will get one of their mini scoops next time. That should do quite nicely.
I worked with my son on the calorie counting today and we discussed activity and being able to eat more, etc. He was very enthusuastic about it all and then we went over the calories he ate today and he asked me how was he going to keep track of all this. I felt bad for him and I told him that is what parents are for and that he just needs to understand why we tell him he can't have this, or he should chose this, etc. and he was very relieved. It was sad and cute all at the same time. I feel like I am both burdening him and building life skills in the same breath.
I saw a 16 year old boy who, at 411 lbs., was seeking bypass surgery on Discovery Health. I was disgusted. The parents say "we've tried everything" blah blah blah. I'm sorry, but your son did not get to 411 lbs overnight, or all by himself. It will be a damned cold day in the dark depths of hell before my child gets morbidly obese on my watch (barring some medical cause)! I can't believe they did that surgery on a child who still had at LEAST four years of growing and development left to go. Unbelievable.
Sometimes I just don't know if I am making the right decision, or not, when it comes to the food with my son. The last thing I want is for him to become obsessed with every little calorie that goes in/out of his system. I want him to be educated and healthy. Ah, the joys of parenting.
Food Total: 1882 cals
Exercise Minutes: 65 mins
Ran for 55 minutes today and could have easily kept on going.
My boy has been stuck at the airport for 7 hours and he is soooo ready to come home. He was supposed to be here at 5:16 and I don't think he will make it until closer to midnight. He sounded like he was going to cry the last time I talked to him. He misses home so badly. We miss him just as much, though. They offered him a flight home tomorrow and he insisted that he and my Mom wait at the airport until the plane arrived. And he is only 8. I'm sad for him that he misses us bad enough to wait at the airport all day long!
I only managed to lose just under 1 lb this week. I guess I'm not too surprised by that. Food hasn't been the greatest this week and I missed two workouts due to the company party and traveling. Oh well. Better next week!
Food Total: 1908 cals
Still riding on the euphoria of meeting my jogging goal yesterday. The knees feel good, too. Muscles are a little unhappy but I like them that way.
I made a deal with myself to increase my speed by 1/10 of a mile per hour for every 5 lbs I lose; that way I don't injur myself and I keep myself motivated. I'm hoping to be under 280 by the end of the month. That is right at 4 lbs I need to misplace. Then I can up my time to 4.2 MPH. That would bee cool. I'm ready. I'm hoping for 2 lbs on tomorrow's check in. If I can get there, I know that 279.99 is mine!
Super excited about all of this!
I shared that I ran 4 miles yesterday with my mother and her first response: "Don't you have shin splints? I tried to start running when I was thirty and got shin splints. I went to the doctor and my doctor told me that people just don't start running in their 30's. Their bodies can't handle it." I said, "No, it feels awesome and I love it. I don't have any shin pain, just a little muscle pain."
Why can't my Mom's first response ever just be happiness/pride for me and my accomplishments? It's always got to be about her first. Oh well! It's a good thing I never seek her approval before I do something, or I'd still be working as a receptionist in Sacramento!
I told her I was going to sign up to run a 5K in the fall and she finally said "Wow, your progress amazes me." She FINALLY said that she was going to take some vacation time and come to see us. I was shocked. Maybe I can run my marathon the weekend she will be here.
Ooooh. New pictures from the company party last weekend. I'm going to post one of them up here on CK. Maybe the me drinkin' margarita picture?
Update: Dang, the picture is too small. I will work on it later at home and post a better version.
Food Total: 1944 cals
Exercise Minutes: 65 mins
Busy busy me.When I got home last night from Corpus, Hubby and I went on a date to Johnny Carino's and we ordered a 40 oz. pitcher of italian margarita and we drank the whole thing!!! I don't even know how many calories are in 20 oz of margarita! And, I wasn't even hung over this morning.
I don't feel like I've done so great in the food department this week, and I know I haven't gotten my exercise in with the traveling. Excuses, excuses. They suck.
Back to work, work, work. I am sooo tired but we are going to the gym tonight!______________________________________________________________
I DID IT! I DID IT! I DID IT! I DID IT! I DID IT! I DID IT! I DID IT! I DID IT!
I RAN 50 MINUTES TODAY!
I'm so freekin excited. Now, to maintain that 50 minutes and work my way faster until I get a little closer to my goal weight.
Food Total: 1942 cals
The documentation project is FINISHED. Well, sort of. I submitted my final draft to the client and I'm sure there will be revisions. However, I don't anticipate EVER getting them, given the organizational history of this client.
I have to go to Corpus Cristi tonight??? Geez, talk about your short-notice! I planned on going to the gym tonight, not Corpus...Prince Charming ought to LOVE that one! Oh well. I truly love my work and traveling can be fun!
I went over calories last night by about 130. Whoopsie. I'm not so sure it was worth it, either. So much for losing my 4 lbs this week. That won't happen. It's okay, though. I don't really need to be losing that much weight each week. That will create problems. 279.99 by the end of July sounds just fine!
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Oooooooh. I just re-took my profile and CK actually adjusted my calorie target to 1990 per day. Kewl! I'm no longer in that general 2000 calorie group when you are really heavy. Yay!
Update: What, exactly, was supposed to be so nice about South Padre Island? This hotel, on the island, was the only hotel in a 50 mile radius of Corpus Chrisit with a non-smoking room available (at $150 per night with full view of the highway and the sound of constant traffic???). It looks just like Galveston to this California girl. And to think I was considering a mini-vacation here in the fall...NOT. This sucks...and so did the food.
Git me the
fuck outa here!
Food Total: 2134 cals
Work is a little slow this morning. It looks like the rest of the week will be pretty busy, though. Yay!
Getting dressed this morning I noticed that my size 20 clothes are getting baggy. I remember squeezing into them in May. I ordered an XXL t-shirt for the company party this past weekend and it was too big. I remember when I ordered it I was worried that it would be too small for me. I still don't see myself as 60 lbs lighter. Weird. I put on one of my hubby's XL t-shirts last night and it fit. I was shocked. It was a little tight in the chest and hips, but of course it would be--I'm a girl! The rest of it fit, though. I was amazed.
I have two t-shirts and one sweat shirt that are almost 10 years old. They fit me well when I lost a bunch of weight back then. I am only a few pounds from getting into them again. I don't remember having this loose skin back then, though. But, that was a long time ago. Part of me can't believe I am so close to where I was 10 years ago. Everyone back then said I looked pretty good--even my Dad who has always been "gently" critical of my size. When I see myself I still see someone who has a ton of weight to lose. Could it really be that I only have 50 lbs left to lose? That seems like such a small number right now.
I've been going down a size every 12 lbs, or so. I was thinking that a size 12 would be good for someone with my body composition. That would be three sizes from where I am now. That would be about 40 lbs from here. I remember shopping with my cousins when I was younger (who were NOT overweight) and they were wearing size 10 and 12. That should be good for me. We have similar sized frames. One was taller one was shorter.
I need to get someone to take a full-length picture of me so that I can look at this more objectively.
Update: I have decided to officially declare myself vegetarian. The kind that eats fish, that is. Pesce-vegetarian, maybe? Whatever. My hubby has been vegetarian his entire life and I have never been a big meat eater. My meat consumption has contained less and less meat with every passing week. I bought a roasted chicken last week and it didn't taste very good to me. The last chicken before that one didn't taste very good, either. So, I am going to decide to just be through with it completely and see how it goes. Since my cholesterol tested borderline-high a few months ago, I quit eating eggs and backed down on the cheese. I tried egg-beaters but it just wasn't the same.
I was supposed to be busy this afternoon but I can't get the information I need to get the work done. The account manager has disappeared...
Food Total: 2053 cals
Owieeeee. My feet, ankles, heels, arches, everything down there, hurts! It was really bad this morning, but not nearly as bad now. Who woulda thunk playing volleyball would do THAT?
The new church was a little disappointing this morning. I'm still hopeful but some of the excitement I had last week about this being the right church has waned some. We'll see.
I'm going to log my food for the day (so far), take some more motrin, and take a nap with the love of my life.
Toobin' Down the river this morning - very fun
Lunch
Shopping in huge outdoor strip mall
Walked to the company party (there may be somehing wrong wih me)
Drank, drank, drank, drank (no food)
Played volleyball w/coworkers
Drank, drank
Walked home
I've been sweatin almost ALL day and I feel wonderful. I wish I could be this actie everyday.
Also down 5.5 lbs from last Saturday.
I'm going to shoot for 4 lbs this week and I will be under 280!
What an awesome day.
Food Total: 510 cals
I am this --> <-- close to having this documentation project finished. I can almost feel the freedom. Looking forward to getting on the plane and just zoning out to my iPod. I didn't say one single word to the guy next to me coming in and I hope to have the same experience going home. This place has been noisy and I need to RELAX. I don't do well with lots of constant noise.
Tomorrow we go tubing down the river with my colleagues. It is company party day. We go tubin', have lunch, home to take a nap, then to the real party at 6pm. It ought to be a lot of fun. They are flying the people in from our other two offices with their families so we will get to meet everyone, finally. I'm really looking forward to the tubing trip. I'm going to try to sneak to the gym on our way out to weigh myself since it is weigh-in day. I've been awesome this week and can't wait to see if it is reflected on the scales.
I can't wait to see prince charming, too!
Food Total: 1530 cals
Exercise Minutes: 80 mins
Wow. This client is really unorganized. Last time, the person I was supposed to work with was on vacation. This time, he doesn't have time to talk to me. I was told they installed a new software module and, instead, they are really just using a feature of the old software that they hadn't used before. I was told that it changed their entire staging and shipping process.
Nope. It changed one thing.
I'm so bored. It doesn't take two days to document one change and to talk to someone who doesn't have time to talk to me.
Geez I HATE being bored.
I can't wait until I can break outa here and go shopping and running
Update: I'm FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
I just finished eating (I am so incredibly full) and I am going to walk to the mall. Woohoo.
Food Total: 1957 cals
Exercise Minutes: 20 mins
My body only let me have 35 minutes of running yesterday. Bummer. Oh well, I know this happens when you are "training" your body. Two-steps forward, one step back. I'm okay with it, though. Slow and steady is my game. I felt sick to my stomach again, afterward, until I ate. I need to figure out what that is all about. Maybe I need more protein before I run. I've noticed lately that if I feel kinda pukey, then eat something with a lot of protein, I feel all better. Yeah, maybe I'll try that.
On the plus side, I seemed to have misplaced those two pounds I "gained" on Saturday. I knew it couldn't be accurate. Not sure if I am down for the week as I weigh in on Saturday AM, and yesterday was PM. I'm just glad the 2 lbs were gone, either way.
I leave for Atlanta (again) in a couple hours. I'm really looking forward to the trip, though. I booked a better hotel right across the street from the mall in the better part of town. I'm only out for two days, though. That should give me just enough time to document the new processes and finish up the project while I'm on site. My goal is to come back home FINISHED with that documentation project. I'd really like to mark that ticket as complete. It's been open for six weeks now.
The client said that they are REALLY happy with my work and they are working with my boss to arrange for me to document their entire organization, at a more favorable rate. We did this first phase at a loss for relationship reasons. This will put me in Atlanta several more times over the next year, I'm sure. I don't like that airport, but I like the mall in Alpharetta.
I don't really have much to do this morning, bummer. I have a hard time being at work with no work to do...
Update: I messed up my fingernail about 10 days ago. I thought it was healing but I woke up this morning and could tell it was getting infected. I had just had my nails done on Monday so Hubby held the nail down while I cut the nail and some of the acrylic off of it so that I could get some antibiotic down in there deeper. It got worse all day. I finished the deed in my hotel room this evening then went in search of first aid stuff. I found a grocery store. I don't really feel like eating out so I bought two lean cuisines, a roasted chicken, plastic utensils, and a four-pack of single-servings of White Merlot. =)
I spent $27, including the first aid, and I get $25 per diem (I know--that sucks). I'll be able to eat the entire time I'm here on $27. I get to pocket $48. Sweeeeeeet. I called Prince Charming to brag and he just laughed at me. Him: They are giving you money to eat, spend it.Me: How cheaply can I get by so I can "make" money.
This hotel is much better than the last one and you can't beat being 1/4 mile from an awesome mall and tons of restaurants within walking distance. I'll stay here when I come back to see this client from now, on.
I really don't like the Atlanta airport.
Tomorrow I am going to come back to my room and eat, then walk to the mall, then go workout in the fitness center. I'm hoping I can get more than 35 minutes tomorrow. I will have already eaten by time I work out so we'll see if I get sick this time.
Ah, the finger looks like it is getting better. Whew! I was worried I'd have to make an unscheduled trip to the urgent care center.
Food Total: 2071 cals
Exercise Minutes: 65 mins
I'm feeling very...bitchy/acid-tongued/curt/fed-up with stupidity...this morning. Good greif. I better not talk to anyone until I mellow-out some.
I actually complained to a co-worker this morning and I NEVER do that! I hate fueling gossip and negativity. But here I was doing it. Bad Cindy.
WTF is my problem, anyway?
Update: I wonder why my co-workers consider almost every single client of ours' an idiot, a pain in the arse, mean, b!tchy, etc, etc, etc.? I have not met one mean or stupid client. How could I? We deal with CFO's, CEO's, COO's, CIO's and the like. Yeah, some of them may not be as brilliant as others, but COME ON! There isn't a single consultant here who has anything on those people! Most of us haven't even finished college. Those people have MBA's and above! Not to mention the skills necessary to run a profitable and successful business! I know you have to be a bit full of yourself to be a good consultant, but I will not label our clients like that. Maybe some of my coworkers haven't been on the "other" side, so to speak. They don't appreciate what they have professionally here. <
> Oh, well. I know what I have and I am very appreciative of where I am. I know full well where I could be (and have been--see my April blogs!!!).
Tonight is gym night and I am looking forward to acheiving my goal of running for 50 minutes. I'm hoping the weight has nudged down a bit, too. We'll see.
Food Total: 2172 cals
My new tenants realtor is AN ABSOLUTE IDIOTIC DOPE and I can't believe she has her license and I can't believe those people have had my house for 5 days and the paperwork still isn't right and I still have no money. I just can't believe it!
I feel sick to my stomach today. It feels like the arctic tundra in here (as usual) my skin hurts from the bleeping sunburn. I feel like puking and I have 80's hair today (yikes). Can I start this week over?
Update: I feel better now than I did earlier this morning. Money from the house is on it's way to me. Paperworks is STILL screwed up, but money is a good step in the right direction!
I was wondering if maybe I should slow down my weight loss efforts. I have been watching people on Discovery Health with all this loose skin from WLS and I am worried about getting that way (even though I did NOT have WLS). I've lost somewhere around 60 lbs in 5 months, though. I already have loose skin but it isn't THAT bad, yet. I don't want to slow it down--I have goals to meet--but I don't want baggy skin, either. Decisions, decisions.
I showed someone at work today my real before picture (which is not posted here, yet) and I asked her if I still looked like that. She almost screamed! I still look like that person in the picture when I look at myself in the mirror. She couldn't believe that I couldn't tell the difference. From what I read on other people's blogs around here, that is a pretty common issue...I guess I am relieved that I don't look like that, anymore. She even said that if SHE went from looking like my before picture to what I look like now that she would be telling everyone that she was done losing weight and flaunting how "Hot" she looked now. I just had to laugh at her. That made me smile. I doubt I would be considered "Hot" right now by anyone's standards.
I also experienced my first "How are you doing it" conversations. As soon as I said watching what and how much I eat and exercising, she tuned out and gave all these reasons why that wouldn't work for her...LOL. People don't want to hear it!
Food Total: 2277 cals
Exercise Minutes: 90 mins
Can it possibly be that after an ENTIRE year of not being in church, that we may have found one??? And one that reminds me SO MUCH of the one I adored, no less? Can it really be true? Oh please let it be true!
Knees aren't feeling funky today. That is good. After my run yesterday, we went to the factory stores in San Marcos and walked around for four hours. We were pretty much spent by time we got home.
Factory stores have really come a long way, my goodness. Or perhaps it is just the ones in San Marcos? We are definitely going back when there is more disposable income available!Off to the yard work...
Update: I had every intention of spending only an hour out in the yard (as to not get sunburned) but I walked in the front door THREE HOURS later??? How did that happen? I'll blame it on the iPod. Not sure if I'm sunburned, or not, but my body sure feels those three hours bent over pulling weeds! And I don't think the lawn looks any better, either. I know there are a ton of weeds and it will just take time...
Baked potato's, steamed broccoli and mexican blend cheese are on the menu for tonight. That sounds really good and filling. Maybe a glass of wine outside with prince charming once the heat of the day subsides a bit. Yum...
Food Total: 1802 cals
Exercise Minutes: 245 mins
I ran 45 minutes this morning. I felt quesy afterwards for about 10 - 15 minutes. Guess I overdid it a bit?
I have decided that once I hit 50 minutes I am not going to go any further than that until I drop another 50 lbs. I am also not going to increase my pace too rapidly. I am going to increase my pace by 1/10th MPH for every 5 lbs I lose. It will kind of be my own reward system. I will not bump up to 4.2 MPH until I get to 280. Which is 7 lbs away.
The scale showed I was up two pounds this week. I'm not buying it. There's absolutely no way I could have eaten 7,000 calories OVER manitenance this week (which would be ~4000 calories per day). NO.WAY.AT.ALL!!! So I am going to record my weight the same as it was last week as today is check in day.
My knees are a little iffy right now, but we don't go back to the gym until Tuesday. Hopefully they will be okay. I'm soooo close to my 50 minute goal that I hate to stop!
We have no plans this weekend. My client cancelled. Will this drive me crazy???
Some things that I used to love but can no longer tolerate (Yuck):
Fried foods, expecially seafood
Hershey's chocolates
Reese's peanut butter cups
IHOP
Most chocolate (I am very upset about this one)
Pastries & breads (or anything) made from bleached white flour
ANY kind of fast food
ANYTHING salty
Coffee Mate, or other cream substitutes, or really any substitutes at all
Most meat
Anything processed
Macaroni & cheese
Ceasar salads
I didn't try to dislike any of these things (especially my beloved chocolate). It just slowly happened through eating better foods. I found that I didn't like these things, anymore. :(
I'll be happy about this later. I just need to mourn right now.Especially the loss of my dear chocolate. At least I can still have my chocolate cake.
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The past 24 hours have been interesting. Instead of going to the gym last night, we went to a mexican restaurant and had a margarita with dinner. That one margarita kicked me in the pants big-time. I was so out of it. We got home at 8:00, I barely got undressed and crapped out in bed. Slept 10 hours on a full stomach. I am an embarassment to all of the drunks of the world! This morning I decided that I'd eat chocolate cake and milk for breakfast.
Don't think I've really gone over in calories, though. I had one large taco yesterday with a salad and beans n rice. Starting off the day today with cake wasn't exactly brilliant, though. I'm really hungry right now.
Tonight we are going to the gym. Tomorrow I make my marathon day-trip to Dallas to see my client. Sunday we are going to go to the gym for a good, long time then come home and finish organizing the boy's room. It will be a busy weekend.
Update: Who IS that person in that picture up there above my blog? I should get a new photograph taken of myself and post it. That person was a size 24/26...I am a size 18.
I went shopping briefly yesterday. I BOUGHT SIZE 18 SLACKS AND TOPS AND I AM WEARING THEM RIGHT NOW. Size 18!!! Yippie, yahoo and woohoo!
I finally got rid of the rest of my 24-26-28 clothes. I now have 6 outfits that fit!
I really enjoyed the past five days with my husband. We need to schedule more of those days like that.
Back at work today. Refreshed, in smaller clothes, and happy.
Update: I miss my hubby. I've been thinking about him almost all day. Can't wait to get home. Then we go to the gym. Hopefully we can hit the pool after our workout. I think rather than aiming for 40 minutes of running today, I am going to try 35 minutes without breaking. Sounds do-able.
Exercise Minutes: 60 mins
Yay. 35 minutes running today on the TM.
Weight was + 8 oz. No biggie, though. Fluctuations are normal.
Hubby and I had another awesome day together. Got a little too much sun at the pool after we worked out, though.
Tomorrow we plan to stay home and get the house in order. We've been out doing stuff everyday since Saturday. Maybe two little errands tomorrow.
One of my old neighbor's (at our Dallas house) house burned up last week and they want to rent mine until theirs get's rebuilt. I know them and how they take care of their house, even with their pets, so I am not hesitating one bit to let them rent it from me. Their insurance company is going to be paying me for it, so the only issue that could arise is if they do not take care of it, and I know they will. At least we will be getting some money in from it. I feel so bad for them and the wife is still very upset and emotional about the whole thing. I went ahead and gave them the code to get in through the garage so that they can at least start moving their stuff, even though nothing is signed, yet. I trust them and I am happy to help them out in their time of need.
Food Total: 658 cals
Second full day (of 19) with the love of my life.
Today's agenda:
More good food
Test drive some NICE new cars (Audi & Infiniti)
Run errands
Clothes shopping
Quality (and quantity) Time with my hubby
I DID IT!
I met my goal of running for 30 minutes by the end of the week.
I met my goal of weighing in at 288 by 6/30/06.
WooHoo.
And, I could have kept on running, too, but decided to be easy on myself.
And, I checked in at almost a full pound under 288.
My kiddo is safetly in Nebraska and hubby and I had our first date together in a loooooooooooooooong time.
What an awesome day!(except for the sinus infection I feel coming on)
